Obsessed.

Confession 1; I have an obsession. "The domination of ones thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire or feeling." It dominates my thoughts and feelings. The ideas, images, desires and feelings play out in my daily life. Theater is what I live for. It's who I am and what I want to be. Do you have ever feel like that? Like if you aren't satisfied by your one desire then everything in your life will just come crashing down? And I'm not talking about some love life relationship that's missing this, this and this. I mean real honest wholesome desires. 

Sometimes people ask me, "Courtney what do you want to do with your life" and usually I come up with a really clever answer that will completely throw them off like, "just live" or "fall in love like anyone else" and those are both very true statements. But what do I really want to do, what is true to my every being. I want to act. I want to walk on stage and be anything in the world. I want to be a part of something so great and so big. I want to tell stories. I want to make people laugh. I want to make people cry. I want to make people think and ponder. But boy what an earful of an answer to a silly question like "what do you want to do with your life." So I stick to the sarcastic basics to get me by in the conversation, but in my heart I know what I truly aspire to be. That's where we find the part of us that only we hold. And my heart holds an obsession.